Hello readers.

It's been quite some time since I last blogged yeah?

I wonder if anyone still reads my blog hmm...

Recently I've been more active on my Tumblr so yeah. :)

So yeah, this post will be what I've done in 2011 and my new year resolutions!

Are you ready?!

2011 has been a really shitty yet awesome year. So many things happen. So many people change. And I won't deny that I changed too. In Sec 1, I was a happy-go-lucky person. I didn't really have anything to worry about. Except dreading to go the band. Seriously LOL. I am proud to say that in Secondary 2, I was a very very happy person. School was good. Band was good too. In school, I kinda got used to the environment and the people around me. In band, I wasn't the junior anymore. :) In Secondary 3, I don't know what's gotten into me. I was happy, sad, stressed, insecure, sensitive, everything. So much mixed feelings back then. And it's when I found someone to love. I don't think it's just an ordinary crush. It's like....I never liked someone so so so much before. Wow I sound so obsessive but whatever. Judge me all you like. Yeah I did many crazy things in Secondary 3. I pierced my cartilage, I dyed my hair, I cut myself blahblahblah. Rebellious age? But hey, I didn't smoke, club or drink. Yup, 15. Even the people around me said I've changed a lot. Sorry, I wasn't the old Clare Ching.

2 words: Fucked up. I wouldn't say I can cope with my studies in Secondary 3. I sort of scraped my way through everything. I almost couldn't get promoted. Yeah I was that bad. But thanks God, I got promoted to Secondary 4. But yeah, they say Secondary 2 and Secondary 3 was a huge jump. And that Sec 3 was all about retaining or not. I believe it now. Though it's the same number of subjects as Secondary 2, there wasn't Art, DnT or Homeecons. So yeah, I struggled. I think I'm gonna die in Secondary 4...

Gosh, where do i start?? It was this year, that my batch got very close together. And that we got closer as a section too. But it's the stressful year. Well, Sec 3s have to take charge of the whole band after the Sec 4s left and yeah, the majors struggled at first too. What the rest of us could do was to support and help to plan stuff. Thats how we got really close. Everytime after practice, we stayed back and lock the band room, walk out of school when the sky is dark, slacked and talked about band etc. It was really fun. Yeah band is taking up alot of my time and I don't know if it's one of the reasons why I couldn't study. But I won't regret it man. It's like, in 2011, my passion for band grew a lot. I am proud to say that I really love NCWO. Thanks for all the memories. Memories Of Friendship. Through band, I also got to know many other new friends from other bands. And some of them really made a huge impact on my life. (: Never thought I would get this close to those people. I'm glad to have them as my friends. Music brings people together. :)

Like I said in my previous paragraph, I made many wonderful friends in 2011. I realised there were many people who actually cares for me. I can't express how grateful I am to those people who were always there to cheer me up when I was sad, or just be a listening ear. It's good enough. I can say I'm a very insecure and sensitive person. I get awkward with people easily. It takes time for me to open up to you. And when I do, I don't close my heart for you that easily. I can't let go easily. I am a very stubborn person. :) But yeah, I constantly feel that I annoy people. That's why I NEVER start a conversation with you. Unless you really mean a lot to me and I'm dying to talk to you. So if I do start a conversation with you, will you please continue to talk to me?

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I can't continue blogging for now. My mind's in a blank. All I can say is: 2011 is a really eventful year. I just wish in 2012, life would be simple for me. :) Just concentrate on my Os and make the people around me happy. I don't want to be the cause of anyone's unhappiness or anger. I must try to be a better person in 2012. If I ever offend you this year, then I apologise first.

So yeah,

I'm not asking for too much am I? :)

I'm really happy that I got to end 2011 and start 2012 with you. I thank you for everything. From the bottom of my heart. You made me realise so many things. I need not elaborate right? :)

P/S: I still hope the world ends this year.

Why is it always that when someone likes me, I don't like them. But when I finally like them, they don't like me anymore? This sucks. It's so unfair. Is God playing some kind of tricks on me? Testing me out? I don't want to play anymore. I don't know if I can actually get over you. I mean, I can't picture myself liking another guy. I don't want to try to get over you or try to fall for another guy. No. And the thing about me is that, I can never really get over someone until I find someone else to love. But I don't think I'm gonna find someone like you. Yeah, laugh at me all you want. I admit I'm weak. I like staying at this spot.

Wish I could go back to December 2010.

Anyway, I'm too lazy to post about my Taiwan trip lah, so...I'll post about other things instead. :)

2 Dec:

After band, went home bathe and everything! Meet bandmates @ CP for dinner and off we go to Singapore Conference Hall for St Pats a night of "Music To Remember" concert. :)

Reached there just in time haha!! (My heels killed me.) They played pieces like Postcards from Singapore, Memories Of Friendship, Orient Express, Symphonic Episode 1, Der Vogelhandler hahaha. There's a Clarinet, Saxophone and Percussion ensemble after intermission!! Super cool can. :) After their wonderful performance, we went to find them haha. I went to give Clarence, Ashley and Jonny their flowers and chocolates!! (Last time I give letter le hor!) THen started taking pictures! Polaroids. :)

Me and my awesome bro Clarence! :)

He's awesome in playing his cornet, no kidding! :) Alot of solos hor hahaah!

Oh, can you see in the picture he's holding something red? It's the Kinder Bueno i gave him!

Me and Ashley Estrop! :) Super duper awesome Clarinetist hehe.

P/S: He's not a malay, he's an Eurasian!

(I know I look weird here and I'm not looking into the camera lol.)

Me and my girlfriend Jasmine Wong!!! :)

She's super cute and ahlian but she's nice. :)

P/S: I like the sunflower!!!

(She asked me to type something here for her cos' she jealous i never write much!)

Me and my favourite senior Claire Lim! :)

Me and pretty girl Cheryl Ong Siow Bin BMM! :)

HEHEHEH. Awesome Skypers. :) Love you girls!

Me and Gabriel Lim!!! :)

Clarinet Section!!!! :D

Clearer picture of Clarinet section. :)

(I think i look super pretty in this pict heheh. *bhb*)

I think it was a great performance! :) Mr Glz doesn't think so LOL. After the concert rushed home and left for Taiwan early in da morning. :) I'll post about my Taiwan trip next entry, I promise!!

Bye peeps! :) x

To-Do list:

1. Need. To. Be. Prettier.

Siriously.