Life is a little different these days. It's been some time since I last blogged yeah?

I was super busy these days. 5 tests this week, i wonder hope I survived this week but I'm glad I did. :) (Though I did badly for Chem test fml. Could've gotten 6 more marks if i didnt change my answer last minute.) Emaths test was still okay. (:

But yeah, life without you was kinda different. But I'm somehow am starting to get used to it. (Why do I sound like I was previously attached? Nah Im not.) Every now and then I still think of you. Wait no. Even though my life goes on and I'm doing different things everyday, a part of my mind will still be thinking of you. This sucks shit you know. You are one difficult person to forget. I bet you want me to forget you that's why you're doing this right? Or is it because of my tweet that day? But yeah you have every right to be angry about it. That's why I feel like I shouldn't talk to you anymore. Yknow since I saw that tweet of yours I feel so...annoying. Like I am irritating you. Maybe I really am sometimes, I don't know. But I'm sorry okay? Now I won't be angry/sad/bitch about you in my tweets anymore. Do you read my Tumblr? Cause they're all about you. This feels like a game of pretend. I'm pretending that it doesn't bother me one bit but actually I'm dying inside. You know how that feels? When you have to pretend to be happy and wear a smile to school everyday because you're just too tired to explain your feelings to people. And because they'll never understand. Fuck this shit. Everynight before I sleep I'll think about all those things you said before. And I remember a promise you once made. Do you? Maybe not. Well you promised that you would come and find me at my school and pass me those jellybeans haha. Nevermind I am just a distraction in your life. Maybe you'll be happier without me in your life. :)

Thank you. Alot. (: You 2 made me feel like I was worth someone's time. I really appreciate it that you 2 would text me first everyday without fail. I feel so insecure now that I don't text people first unless they asked me to. But sometimes it really got me thinking that I might hurt you both one day. I really don't wanna hurt you 2...

Hey sorry for not talking to you much these days. I've been really busy and I bet you are too right? I really don't wanna drift from you. I feel so guilty because everytime you talk to me I give you short and cold replies because I'm busy. I'm sorry. I will try to make time for you. I really treasure this friendship okay? And doesnt mean I'm a girl so you have to text me first or else we won't talk. You can still confide in me and I will lend a listening ear. Bestfriends. :)

I love you everyone of you who always cheer me up when I'm sad over stupid things haha. I don't know how to express my love for you all. Well there's so many of you who really care for me. Thanks, I can feel it. I feel so fortunate. My clique, my band clique etc. You guys are the people who can make me temporarily forget all my troubles when I'm having fun with y'all. I love doing crazy things with my friends! You guys can really see through me. I love my clique: Osb, Opr, JasmineA, Daphne, Vanessa, Serene, Maddie. I love my band members: Clarinet section (of course), Osb, JasmineW, Valerie, Daphne, HuiNgoh. Thanks guys. Hope I didn't leave any of you out. (:

Claire Lim, Raymond, PC, Daryl.

I'm being super honest in this post. (: I realise so many people care for me. I should stop being so inferior about everything. And stop hurting myself unnecessarily.

Right now: Focus on EOYs. After EOYs I'll waste my life away. I don't know how I'm gonna do that, but yeah. :D And after EOYs, I'll have plenty of times to catch up with the friends I drifted from and think about many other things. I hope I'll get promoted to Sec 4.